Sunday, April 25, 2010
Sunday Afternoon Tea
Sigh... it has been a long week. It started with me throwing my garden gloves on the table and declaring to my husband there would be no garden this year and ended with a fairly good (not perfect) garden planted. Some weeks are only able to be transgressed when leaning on The Everlasting Arms... deciding one has less physical, spiritual, and emotional strength left so a transfusion of strength is needed if we are to continue.
Life is like that at times. We have the best of intentions but between the first spark of imagination and planning and the resulting accomplishment of something done... real life happens. In this case, a combination of my husband not being able to prepare the soil as usual and my own physical weakness from being sick all winter. I tried and tried to prepare the garden and plant as planned until the formerly mentioned day when I just gave up.
Thankfully, the mood passed quickly and I went back to living life "just a little at a time". I bypassed bringing new compost for the prepared raised beds, saved the lettuce seeds for late summer, and realized I may have to plant herbs in May in containers should hubby not feel like building the new raised beds.
I planted the cool weather plants in the area that gets less sunlight (keeping them cooler I hope), planted all the tomato plants since it looks like all chances of frost are behind us, and planted bean "seeds" in the rest of the areas. When the cool weather plants are harvested, a few other plants will take their place. Should the remaining raised beds be built soon enough, pole beans will be planted along with herbs.
How many times have I quoted Edith Shaffer's "If you expect perfection or nothing... you will always end up with nothing". I came close to it this week... nothing showing in the garden. There is a deep chasm between life as I'd love it to be and life as it is. But to give up and do nothing because we can't have everything is to turn our back on He Who Created Us.
So... I take the energy given for the day (give us this day our daily bread), the available finances, the stuff of life necessary to do that which is set before me... the next thing... and work with what He has given me to make a life... one day and a little bit at a time.
Some can rule kingdoms and run marathons and raise ten children and make all their own bread and all their meals from scratch and grow a huge garden and raise chickens and butcher their own cows and have energy left over to hand quilt the most gorgeous Baltimore Album quilt. I can't...
To whom much is given much shall be required says the Book but Jesus also pointed out the small, weak woman... unseen by the rest of the world as she gave all she had at the Temple... mere pennies by their standard... but worthy of the Master calling her by name and having her remembered by all who would read the Book in the years to come.
She could have stayed home and complained... bitter against God for her lot in life. Instead she gave what little she had. I want to be like her and not think of what is lacking but what little is left... and plant a garden.... and live a life.