Friday, March 10, 2017

Signs of New Life


I was going to title this post "Out of the Abyss" but I thought perhaps that would appear too dramatic.  However, that is how I feel.  The Urgent Care doctor, my pharmacist, and my family all have told me I waited too long to seek medical attention but going from a bad cold/cough to the Abyss (of infections) happened quickly. 

I didn't realize how sick I had become until Saturday evening when I was in bed, unable to see clearly, and my head was pounding.  I was started on antibiotics Sunday afternoon, with the doctor warning me that if I had waited just one more day, it may have been too late.  I didn't ask him too late for what (?) but I had a feeling he meant just that.. too late.

I have gone through the past few years getting colds and mild flu symptoms without the possible side affects which come with diabetes. This time I wasn't so fortunate.  The antibiotics are working although my vision is still not clear.  So while reading was impossible it is now just difficult.  The infection going through the rest of my head is clearing up, just two more days of antibiotics to go. 

All prayers have been and continue to be appreciated. I promise, after going through this I'll probably be making a doctor's appointment when I sneeze next time.

It has been warm here but we have had a return to Winter that was expected.  March can be such a tease.  So I could tell I was thinking clearly again when I decided to walk out to the backyard to see if the first daffodils of the season had bloomed in that one space that holds warmth next to the brick of the house.  Getting dressed and with camera and scissors in the basket, I made my way to the backyard and there they were, shivering but lovely. 

With even colder weather expected, I decided to bring these first blooms inside to enjoy.  It took awhile to recover, it felt as if I'd just run a marathon instead of walked to the backyard.  But it will get better.

I need Spring this year.  I think, honestly, I've been in somewhat of an abyss since that evening in early December when Victoria had a stroke.  I don't care how much one loves Jesus, grief is real and it takes awhile to walk through.  Whether for a pet or a person. Add to that the virus that wouldn't end and then the terrible cold and even worse cough and then a terrible duo of infections... I need Spring.

I hope to write on Sunday, a lot of it depends on how my vision is by then.  I thought you might like to see a photo of the daffodils, along with my garden shoes I bought with Holiday Amazon credit.  They serve a double purpose, they make me happy just looking at them and they make my doctor happy because they protect my feet.  He noticed a scratch on my feet last year that I had received when wearing sandals to the garden.  Stern lecture followed...

Please excuse any typos, it is rather difficult to proofread right now.

18 comments:

Deanna Rabe said...

Dear friend,

I am so thankful that it was not too late! Wow! Those are scary words. We are not ready for you to be with the Lord, just yet.

Glad to hear you are on the mend and recovering. Those red garden shoes with the chickens are cute and fun! Perfect for the garden.

Enjoy the daffy's and bring on Spring! I know you are more than ready!

Bess said...

Those are darling shoes, Brenda. I pray you keep feeling better. Many blessings, Bess

Ian's Girl said...

Of course you are still grieving your beautiful girl.... I lost one a few weeks after you lost Victoria and I am still a hot weepy mess. I don't have children, and miss her terribly; she was precious beyond words. As you talk about this latest terrible illnesses, it occurs to me that I, too, have been sick off and on since we buried our little one. Grief is powerful.

Prayers continue for your sick body and broken heart!

Anonymous said...

So glad you are back a feeling better. Please take care of yourself for you (and selfishly, for us--we look forward each week to your inspired words). Love the "chicken shoes". Blessings of good health, Sharon D.

Mary Jane said...

Dear Brenda: I am so happy to read you are on the road to recovery. I am sorry to read the cause of Victoria s death was a stroke. I suffered a stroke in April of last year and I have difficulty with my left arm and leg. On a happier note, I like your new garden shoes. Take care of yourself.

Thickethouse.wordpress said...

Ah, Brenda, you cannot imagine how happy I was to come to your website and see your pretty photo of daffodils and garden shoes and read that you are recovering, slowly, but recovering. May you be well. I will continue to send prayers for you! Spring IS coming!
Perhaps you can listen to podcasts or books on cd from the library......And rest your eyes. And BE WELL!

And of course you are still grieving Victoria. She was your constant companion, and sweet feline friend. It takes time to work through grief.

Sandi said...

COOL SHOES!

Carol said...

Dear Brenda: I am so very glad that it was too late for you. We need you greatly. Love those red shoes.. (MD)

Vee said...

Oh I knew that you were under the weather, but had no idea... Glad to know that you are feeling better and I will continue to pray for the whole thing to be well in the rearview. My eyes filled when you said that you needed spring. Yes, I know that you need to feel that warmth and see the flowers again and play in the dirt. I have not been ill, but I feel as if I need spring, too. Those shoes are still cute!

Florence said...

Glad you are feeling better. Take care of yourself.

rebecca said...

I join the others in expressing my concern and thankfulness that you got help just in time. Praying those antibiotics do their "thing" and that you soon are able to enjoy the Spring that is sure to follow this most unusual winter.

Cheryl said...

Viruses and germs and the like seem especially harsh this year! I am thankful that you are finally on the road to recovery! Take it slow, mind you. Allow yourself all the time you need.

Ahhhh yes . . . spring. I am a decidedly autumn kind of gal, but spring is always a welcome delight after the long, gray (and sick!) days of winter. Hang on!

Sherry said...

well golly you've been through "it"!
glad you're on the mend .. continuing in prayer.
i love your garden boots.
grief can and does take time - a timetable not
like anyone else's for it's yours alone.
bless you dearly this spring evening from out west..

Kellylynn said...

So glad you went to the doctor. ((((hugs to you)))

Anonymous said...

My goodness, you've really been through the mill! Was getting worried when you didn't post anything all week and kept praying for you. Your family must have been worried, too! SO thankful you are on the mend and feeling better! Glad you were able to get out in the sunshine and cut your daffodils to bring inside to enjoy! Love those darling garden shoes, too! Rest up and enjoy snuggling with your new kitty! And take good care! Spring is on the way!
{{Hugs}}
Laura C.(WA)

Marie said...

I am SO glad to see you again and hear that you are better. Your blog is such a blessing to me, and I look forward to every post. Please take care of yourself. And by the way, I love your garden shoes!

Ann said...

Love your garden shoes ... they are so sweet. So glad to hear you're on the mend. I have to agree with you that grief takes it toll over a period of time. It sneaks up on us and hits when we least expect it. Do take good care of yourself and your new fur baby.

copperswife said...

I am so thankful that you sought medical care! What a scary situation. Thankful for antibiotics and good doctors and for the fact that you're feeling just a bit better. Take care of yourself, my friend.