There has been a perfect storm of out-of-the-house appointments and errands, pre-wedding busy-ness (looking up addresses and sending out Save the Date cards), writing deadlines (for a wonderful new project), and a sinus infection... and a broken washing machine.
Most of my days are do-able. I present a mental or physical list to myself of those things which must be done... those which should be done... those I wish I could do... and a few fond dreams here and there.
Most days at least the must be done items are mostly done. Some days there are some shoulds and wishes accomplished. Perhaps even a dream once in a blue moon.
But this past two weeks... oh, my! I have felt the burden of undone lists weighing upon my shoulders and waking me up in the middle of the night. When the undone includes those things you want to do and love to do and always try to make time for... life becomes burdensome.
I think such scenarios bother me to the extent they do because they remind me of my finiteness. Mankind and Womankind were originally not created to know what it is like to live in finiteness. Little did they know what was meant by "if you eat this you will certainly die".
What did we inherit from our original father and mother? Finiteness... and all that comes with it.
Thankfully I can hum the words of one of my favorite songs... I Can See Clearly Now. Although I am not a superstitious person, I think I will stop and knock on wood or something.
It looks like the storm of extreme busy-ness has gone out to the ocean leaving behind a whirlwind of papers and laundry and clutter and ideas and unanswered mail and sinuses still on Benedryl.
But the winds of undone lists are no longer blowing through my head and the rain of guilt pounding the windows of my soul is almost stilled.
Although I think it is always there... as a little drizzle reminding me that I live in 24/7 time.
Today I will rest in spite of the inner nudging of the To Do list. It is, after all, Sunday. God... who did not need to rest on the 7th day... was the loving Father who showed us the wisdom of working six days and resting the one. I have to think His To Do list is a lot bigger than mine.
Picture: Afternoon Light by Susan Rios
11 comments:
This is an exciting time for your family coupled with all the everyday-ness of life which must be dealt with as well.
So thankful we can join Him on His timetable and watch Him work on our behalf!
Enjoy your day of rest!
Deanna
I totally understand what you are talking about. There are so many things that need done, that should be done, that I want to get done, that I am sometimes crippled with being overwhelmed. Some days all I can get done it putting one foot in front of the other. Then, like last night, I lay in bed and think of all the chores that need done before Spring, during Spring, before Summer... Why would I torture myself so?!? I think you are right, a Day of Rest is in order. Thank you for reminding me!
Valerie
I wish your weekdays could be more filled with calm, but at least you have this blessed Sunday for your soul to be especially rested and filled with God's strength and wisdom. Perhaps you could have some help from somewhere with the tasks you have to do. I wish I lived nearer! (Though I have my own tasks to do, which are not getting done fast enough. It's always easier, in some mysterious way, to help someone else!)
Oh dear, another sinus infection...that makes life so much harder!! Do you suppose you have food allergies?? We are finding we feel better when we leave out the gluten stuff...hubby too, even tho I do not think he has allergies per se...just a thought. Hope you feel better soon!!
Elizabeth in NC
Cold medications tend to make us tired. Hope you feel better soon.
What is your special writing project? If it's a book I can't wait to read it.
Very glad that you are resting because, unlike God, you do need it and more than just on Sunday. What a busy time in your family ... a perfectly wonderful and exciting time. I know that the Lord will see you all through to all the activities and the wedding and beyond.
Is your washing machine back up and at'em?
My family is going through a dark tunnel of "finite awareness" right now. I have never before thought that Adam and Eve were not created to know or be aware of finiteness. No wonder it is feels so crushing. . . thankfully it will be done away with in the new heavens and the new earth.
I love the thought that His to do list is bigger than mine and He rested. Good point! :)
Lori
Brenda, I am quite sure we are twins separated at birth...
Brenda, I am quite sure we are twins separated at birth...
I'm sure your repost would have been a blessing, but I needed this today. Thank you so much!
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