Sunday, July 24, 2011
Sunday Afternoon Tea
I must say that I needed a crisis about as much as say... getting the measles or chicken pox. However, I know God is in control and what the enemy of our soul intends for evil, our Lord works it for our good and His glory. I can hardly wait to see how this comes out.
I also must again say that I realize the many miracles which He provided on our behalf. To say it could have been much worse is an understatement beyond my own imagination (which is quite vivid). But there were a few days in which I wondered if I would (as I told Linda), keep my sanity. For not only were there so many items in my house which no longer worked but it was full of broken electronics in the middle of the rooms, placed on coffee tables, and stumbled over in unexpected places.
Thankfully, our pastor gave us a quite large gift card to a favorite restaurant which we used to bring home dinner that first week but also as an escape from the chaos surrounding us at home (I used the very last of it a few nights ago just to get away for decaf coffee).
That week gave me time to find places for the electronics to sit all nice and tidy and out of the way and to get used to a new normal. The human spirit is amazing that way in its' ability to adapt when necessary and fortunately before we had no hot water in the house.
While I find it much better when there is a regular pattern to living and I normally require a certain consistency to my days... I found once the house was put back to the new normal (that being tidy islands of broken electronics instead of it spread out through the house)... then I could find rest while curled up with a cup of herbal tea each evening... the kind that is to help relax.
One Truth which always comes to me in times of crisis... as well as those sandpaper days of normal living... is that peace is not an emotion one longs for but Peace is a Person. He tells us He gives us peace "not as the world gives" but that feeling of peace and calm which comes upon us in the storms of life (in this case... literally).
I learned long ago that living in a fallen world such as planet earth (or what Lewis called, "The Silent Planet") one must understand there are storms we must walk through. Like St. Peter walking on the water, we stay safe as we keep our eyes on Him in the storm. It is only when we look around and fix our attention on crashing waves and thunderous surf that we sink into a pit of fear and despair.
Of course, I'm not talking about a Pollyanna attitude that the sun will always be out or choosing to hide our head in the sand and hoping it all becomes better. That is why Peace is a Person. He not only gives us the peace but as we pray and trust Him... He is working out the circumstances which will result in peace. It will be okay even if we look around and see scars caused by the imperfection of life.
So as I cook in a dark kitchen, I am thankful the stove and refrigerator were not taken out (or my Precious... that being the red mixer). I am thankful the coffee pot works. I can even be thankful it is a short trip from the stove to the sink when I pour boiling water in for doing dishes. I am really, really thankful the air conditioner and well pump did not go out.
I choose Peace. I choose to look for those things which bring calm in the midst of the crisis. I choose not to fear as the storm clouds once again form on the horizon (literally... I just had to turn the light on and it is mid-day). I choose to have patience while waiting to turn our claim in to the insurance office and more patience as we await restoration.
Faith built in the midst of the storms... hope which is strengthened as we see God's work in our life... these are what trials bring so that as we walk the day to day challenges of living in a world of imperfection we can face each day with courage and faith and peace.
He has brought us through again and will continue to hold us in the palm of His hand... until that day when we meet Him in person an all is restored to perfection. What a day that will be!