Instead I can turn the radio up a notch, roll the windows down to let the breeze flow through the car, and enjoy the sights of farm land and horses and wildflowers (the same of which are weeds in my yard) and forest and fauna.
Once in awhile I find myself behind a slow moving John Deere tractor but most of the time I don't mind. I know it is on its' way to work the soil... perhaps on one of the farms with old red barns which frequent the rural roads.
A few days ago while driving that county road, I listened to a favorite radio personality interviewing an equally respected author. It suddenly hit me that it had been a year or so since I had stopped to listen to this radio station at this particular hour. I wrote on my mental To Do list to make tuning in a priority.
If this was to happen, it meant some changes to my same old-same old schedule... which would be a good thing. Another determined effort to bring new life to.... Life. A little thinking and planning as the Buick obeyed the stop sign by the tiny country church and I knew all that was necessary to make this small change was to move the extra radio alarm clock to the kitchen.
I continue in my quest to shake off grumbling and complaining and pouting for that of... doing and creating. Making those little changes in my everyday living which... when combined into days and weeks... provide fairly significant improvements in my overall quality of life. For instance, making a place for the wheat grinder in the kitchen so the grinding of white wheat into healthy flour will be quite easy.
I love this quote by Eugene Peterson from his book, Run with the Horses:
"Something very different takes place in the life of faith: each person discovers all the elements of a unique and original adventure. We are prevented from following in another's footsteps and are called to an imcomparable association with Christ. The Bible makes it clear that every time that there is a story of faith, it is completely original.
God's creative genius is endless. He never, fatigued and unable to maintain the rigors of creativity, resorts to mass-producing copies. Each life is a fresh canvas on which he uses lines and colors, shades and lights, textures and proportions that he has never used before."
Is that a wonderful description of God's work in our life? No wonder in my quest to know Him better and become the person He wants me to be at this stage of my life... I am drawn to create.
The sandpaper days of life can easily rub away joy when one is not careful. I have found when I live my life reacting to what each day brings and not taking the time for the reading of the Word and having a chat throughout the day with the Creator, then the world by default becomes more real than Him and my very soul can be overwhelmed with the affects of the Fall from Grace... Eden lost.
But once I make a determined effort to do the opposite of that which the enemy of my soul wants me to do... to stop looking back as if the best is behind... to get over the fear of the unknown future... once I thought through what I can do and what is good in life... He opened my eyes to the Beauty all around and the opportunities right within my grasp to bring joy after mourning and light in the darkness.
Peterson was right for God... who is Love and is Creativity and is the source of all Joy... is well able to mold and shape each one of us in a unique and wonderful way... the finished picture only He has painted in His perfect will for us.
But we have to take that first step of change, little steps in my case... moving a small radio in the kitchen, planting seeds, trying new veggies and flowers this year, grinding wheat and kneading bread, bringing home new cookbooks from the library, studying a new devotional book or dusting off an old favorite, staying away from TV shows which do not edify, learning something new and not being afraid of starting out badly, having something to show for my time at the summary of hours or months or even years to come... giving life to our days.
I want to let the summer teach me, to let it provide the environment of warmth and long days to energize new and renewed interests... whether working in the heat as I garden or trying a new recipe in the air conditioned kitchen... creating instead of pouting... catching a glimpse of that picture He has painted that is a road well traveled and a life well lived. :)