Sunday, July 11, 2010

Sunday Afternoon Tea

I don't know what the emotion is or what sparks that moment... but there are short expanses of time I feel a sense that can only be described as a "deja vu of joy".

This past week the emotion was just below the surface of my thoughts, ready to pop up as I cooked fresh-from-the garden green beans in the kitchen while listening to Jamie Oliver discuss leeks on the television (my stove is behind the TV... sort of).

These emotions have to be sparked by some past memory or experience, much like re-reading a book which was originally read a decade or more earlier.

It reads like a new book but once in awhile, one comes to a paragraph remembered from the original reading... one that had been important at the time and was burned into memory.  There are times when re-reading a book, certain sections can take me back to the place where it was originally read (or many places for favorite books re-read multiple times).

I wasn't certain what these deja vu memories meant or if others experienced them.  I suppose the closest I came to reading about such feelings was found in the words of the poets and the prose written by those who have the soul of a poet.

What is there about a gentle summer thunderstorm that brings back a happy feeling?  Why does just the sight of watermelon on a plate cause me to smile?  I have yet to understand fully why tying on an apron makes me feel a connection to homemakers long gone or the way the garden smells after a rain shower brings a melancholic (yet safe) feeling somewhere from the deepest part of my soul.

Many of us have had the experience of a certain song suddenly coming from the radio and realizing tears are running down our cheek... mostly remembering (but at times confused) by the sadness the song brings.  As well as certain music coming on the radio which brings with it a whiff of Coppertone, sand, and water... and the long forgotten feeling of a teenage summer with no responsibilities.

But what about those rare emotions when one feels the Presence of the One who loves us above all human emotions can comprehend?  For some of us, we felt that pulling toward Him long before we accepted that love and salvation.  The soft Voice of One speaking from eternity into the present day of time and space... for me... the least, the little, the lost, the insignificant.

The first time I glimpsed these emotions in a nonfiction book was while reading The Sacred Romance.  Not only the words of the authors but in the many quotations they provide through the book by others (not surprisingly many writers I already adore).  We truly do "read to know we are not alone"... as reminded by dear Mr. Lewis. 

They had been there... they knew... they had heard the One calling in the midst of all that is crazy in this world.  They realized the Romance and reminded us that He who is Love and Joy tabernacles within...


Acacia said...

Wow. Great post, Brenda. I fully understand what you are trying to say... and I agree with every word.
Thanks so much!
In Christ,

Vee said...

Exquisitely written... Brought back lots of feelings. I was with you sniffing Coppertone, but never would have made the connection to teenage years with no responsibilities without your sharing it. Ditto for tying on an apron or feeling the presence of God.

Sometimes, when my Nan is feeling particularly low, I wonder why it is that she's not experiencing the excitement of knowing that very soon she will be free of this mortal body and delighting in her new one. Then I must remind myself that the same is true for me. We can all know the heavenly blessings here today. He wants us to know these things now. He has so much for us.

Thank you for such a thought-provoking post.

Mrs.Rabe said...

Beautiful, dear friend.

Have a wonderful Sunday. Full of the knowledge of Him, that deep knowing kind of knowledge.


Virginia Knowles said...

Thank you for this post, Brenda. Just what I needed right now. I have an article with a quote from Sacred Romance on my web site at

Cathy said...

Thank you for the beautiful words today Brenda. I understand and as always you put into words what my souls feel. Love to you and hope you have a beautiful and blessed week ahead.

Suze said...

Summer is so very beautiful - all the color, the smells, the fresh air in the window. It brings back memories of younger days and more carefree ways. Beautifully written, Brenda - and since I'm now reading Elizabeth Goudge, I know just what you mean.

Cozy in Texas said...

What a lovely post and beautiful pictures to go along with it.
Cozy In Texas

The Journey said...

Certain experiences do bring those feelings. Free no responsiblity summer- that one I don't know, my summers were always busy.

Coffee Tues??

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the cheery post. I agree there are times when something- a old song for example that brings back a feeling that I haven't had for decades. As I grow older I really treasure these "throwbacks".