I am usually a very optimistic person but I could tell yesterday the cranky part of me was coming out. I saw that the stock market had gone up a lot and my first thought was "at least someone is getting good news". Then my second was that the stock market is still going to crash further so they'd better not get too excited about the numbers. Hmmm... pass that woman some chocolate and caffeine! :)
There seems to be an overwhelming heaviness in the air these days. Not just in my home where we struggle to keep financially afloat but in many families. I suspect among conservative Christian homes, there is the awareness that change is in the air and it isn't necessarily good for us. Then there is the obvious economic chaos that has become a world wide event. Sigh... and double sigh.
Isn't it odd how different people handle difficult times? I was watching the evening news recently (which, in itself could bring the gloomies) and they were showing how Halloween sales were up since last year. Halloween is now just below Christmas for the amount of money spent by households. They showed a family who had just spent $1,500 for a Halloween themed birthday party. Um... that's just one party... for one evening.
They admitted that was a more than they had planned to spend but, after all, this was a birthday party so it was well worth it. Reminds me a lot of the old saying of "eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die". That attitude has been behind many a bankruptcy when the event was put on their Visa Card.
I don't know, perhaps I was being cranky and judgemental. After all, it has been one of those "weeks" (hmmm... months?) when I have felt guilty spending $40.00 at the grocery store and we've just found out we need a third major car repair in three months. It's not that I'm unthankful for the miracles He has accomplished by always providing for us.
I just want to be able to spend $1,500 on a Halloween party with no regrets. Um... Brenda... you don't celebrate Halloween. You'd also never be able to spend that much money on any Holiday. Are you in chocolate withdrawal or something?
Okay, I know... I wouldn't really want to spend that much on a Halloween party but when one is cranky, one doesn't think straight. One wants to crawl on the sofa with a warm pillow, a throw, the novel one is reading, a cup of hot chocolate with mint... and mope.
So, I'm allowing myself a chance to mope and chill and pout and feel sorry for myself. Just for this evening. Tomorrow I must spend time in the Word and put on all the Armour of Christ... take a deep breath and march forward in His strength and courage.
But tonight I mope.
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