Beware of becoming careless over the small details of life and saying,
"Oh, that will have to do for now."
Whatever it may be, God will point it out with persistence
until we become entirely His."
My Utmost For His Highest
The above quote by Oswald Chambers is the last paragraph of his July devotionals. One I found to require a great deal of soul searching. Where do my thoughts take me at the end of the day when I ponder what was accomplished? Often there is a feeling of something... undone.
Almost always that feeling leads me back to the lack of quality time spent with the One who matters most. His loving persistence woos me back to Due North in a life filled with urgent... and sigh... even menial tasks which have lured away my attention.
The devotional that day caused me to stop and ponder what small details I am overlooking... what could I change in my desire to grow a life of depth in a world leaning towards the shallow.
I know there are habits which need to be replaced or tweaked. For instance, perhaps my need to watch the morning news first thing can be switched to a later time so first hours can be given to that which I don't want to ignore.
A change I made already is to make a place where it is easier to get away from distractions. For I have found that by having a Place helps develop a daily ritual. Whether that place is on the deck on an early summer morning or curled up at the end of the sofa with a cat and a throw in mid-winter.
Currently on the tapestry footstool in my study-office-sewing room; I have stacked my favorite Bible, a devotional, and the current Christian nonfiction book I'm reading (this one happens to be on the Kindle).
I will join them in the cozy chair with a cup of morning coffee or afternoon tea. If necessary the itty bitty iPod is on the desk, ready with lovely songs of inspiration should I need my theology set to music.
If that is what I am adding, then what am I taking away? Well, just for this next week I'm forcing myself to limit all social media. No "Liking" anything online. No pins on Pinterest this week. I don't care how pretty or yummy they look.
What about next week or next month or next year? What will I add or take away? Like so many other things in my walk with the Lord, I find He prefers to deal with me on a day to day basis, only sometimes extending to a week at a time. He understands in my finiteness, I do better with 24 hours at a time.
It is not like I am unaware regarding what is of value and what is not. But giving my time to that I value (like beginning a long novel or a nonfiction book where one must think) takes effort that requires more than fluffing a pillow and searching for the remote. Just as it takes thought to plan a healthy meal rather than picking up burgers and fries in the drive thru.
Sigh... at least I'm pondering it all now instead of letting the weeks get away from me. What does the Psalmist ask Him? "Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom?" Indeed...