I found it odd yesterday, how I reacted to my brother's death. Normally when there is some kind of bad news, I go into Energizer Bunny mode. On Saturday, we lost contact with Christopher and M. as they were on their way home from New England and no one knew what was going on.
Probably a good thing as they were traveling through mountains in a snowstorm and the combination of the mountains and the heavy snow caused zero bars on his usually reliable smart phone (which never leaves his side). M.'s parents called later that day to let me know she was able to get a text through that they were in a storm but well and about a half an hour later, Christopher was able to call.
In the meantime, I got a whole lot done! I have heard Edith Schaeffer did the very same thing when under great stress. Not that I would want to deal with that too often but it was remarkable just how much was accomplished during those hours... sheesh.
In some ways, my brother's passing was much like my mother's... they had suffered so much that it was a relief when they passed on. But any such loss brings memories and feelings, those which we may have long ago forgotten come back to the surface as if they happened yesterday... bringing sadness and the inability to think, much less move.
Any such passing also reminds me of the brevity of life, that there is a beginning and an end and God's gift to us is the time in between. When a friend or family member passes on, we so often think of our own days and reflect how we are spending our gift of life.
Thankfully, I was able to put away all laundry and have a clean kitchen when the guys arrived home last night. I had to smile as Christopher brought a blanket and pillow to the sofa to veg out with a movie after a very long day (he has challenging classes one right after the other all day Tuesdays and Thursdays!). Just like old times... some things never change... the teenage Christopher did the same with the History Channel and the little boy would get lost in cartoons. :)
Once again, thank you all... you bless me. What is on my "to do" list for today? Well, I am organizing some drawers and the cabinet which the antique sewing machine sits on. Nothing huge, not like the clothes and linen closets. A steady list of easy to keep my mind occupied...