2 Timothy 1:7 NKJV
My ponderings this week have been about... fear, dread, apprehension, that churning feeling that comes in the tummy when one looks at the future and wonders... how?
The enormous rise in the price of gasoline and food is beginning to have huge affects on this family. We were already tight so a few months ago those "extras" we enjoyed had to go... Starbucks, breakfast out, magazines off the news stand, an occasional full price CD, grocery store flowers (not on clearance), etc.
Then those little luxuries... frugal luxuries... started to disappear from the list... cream for our coffee (I did buy it as a surprise for my husband's birthday "cuppa"), good coffee, Diet Sierra Mist, small cartons of flavored yogurt, name brands of Florida orange juice (my husband cannot drink OJ made with oranges grown outside the USA... per doctor's orders), any kind of meat at the grocery store which is not on sale, those rare out of season fruits and veggies, etc.
However, this month... "How will we make it through the remainder of the month? How will we buy gas for both of the cars since I will be working and must use the old car. What will I do to get away for a break on the two twelve hour days, even though I'm taking my lunch. What, how, when, why..." That helpless feeling returns...
An e-mail received, our request for financial aid is denied. How will Christopher take summer classes, much less the next full school year? It appears to be an error on their part but still... something else to call about and see what happened. Can it be fixed in time?
Will we get a check from the government? We think so but it looks like Christopher may fall through the cracks... we may not get the $300 for him because we are on Disability... not allowed on his since we take him as a deduction.
Discussions about where money must be spent... priorities... difference on those priorities. (Which always happens between men and women!) Talking it out... praying about it... seeking God's provision as well as His Will.
Those on fixed incomes are the canaries in the mine... what we felt first is now making its' way through the middle class. We watch the news and the situation looks bleak... food shortages, rising food prices, gas prices to continue to $4.00 a gallon or more, the cost of the basics of life going up far beyond what we expected. Where did this come from?
Then we stop fretting and worrying and remember the past... altars built in our memory of impossible situations from which He brought us through... miracles of provision in the midst of personal lack... food in our personal famine.
Then a birthday check received from his daughter... birthday lunch "out", a haircut which he badly needed, an oil change for the car... peace of mind for his birthday. Later... essentials... how will we purchase essentials? We never expected... never planned... to be completely broke so early. We are not used to these prices for basics. Pray... Believe... Peace... a late birthday card from California... a $100.00 dollar bill... thank you, Aunt A... thank you, God.
We will be more careful next month. Thankfully, we can do a little more "stocking up" with the money I make at the bookstore... which is how it is usually used.
We need not fear...
He created us to live at such a time as this. He knew all along where He wanted us, what year we would be born, what time and season in which we would be His eyes... His ears... His hands... do His work on the planet. He provides. He always does. Honest...
From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live.
Acts 17:26 NIV
26And He made from one [common origin, one source, one blood] all nations of men to settle on the face of the earth, having definitely determined [their] allotted periods of time and the fixed boundaries of their habitation (their settlements, lands, and abodes)...
Acts 17:26 Amplified Bible